Getting drunk tonight!!!! With my lesbifriend Jo
Admit it, you are all jealous of my adorbs gay bffl!!!! :D
More content with my love life/Amber than I have been in a loooooong time. :)
I think sometimes I just wish I got more recognition for handling this whole staying-friends-with-ex thing so wonderfully. I mean, we are both just so damn mature about it. It’s nice, but its frustrating. Maybe she wouldn’t always agree with me on this, but I feel like I am doing a damn good job at not being mad at her for the most part. And even when I do get upset, I usually don’t tell her about it until later when I can calmly talk through the issues. All the sudden, my blood is boiling. I just want to call her up right now and yell. Yell for no reason. I have nothing particularly on my mind at all I’m just frustrated with the whole damn situation and I feel like I have every right to scream in her face for 10 minutes so that we can move on. Ugh. Maybe I’ll use the usual method of smashing cardboard boxes to smithereens out in the woods. Who wants to join me?! Get rid of some residual frustrations of your own? It works wonders.
We talked a little bit tonight. Usually after we talk, I feel so satisfied and content again. This time it didn’t work and I’m not sure why. I told her that and asked if we could talk again tomorrow. But what if this anger just fizzles with sleep and I have nothing productive to say, again? Or what if the anger flames again in the middle of talking and I end up yelling at her? Either way, I’m nervous now. :/
omgomgomgomgomgomgomg
I am now out to ALL of my immediate family members. Holy shit, I think i might puke (although that may be from my illness…) And tonight I am going to the Queer Experience that my college is putting on. I am going to CRY SO FREAKING MUCH. It’s just a sore subject for me these days, obviously. It’s going to be rough but also absolutely fantastic. I can not wait to hear from the wonderful cast (many of which are my close friends).
Omg, I am so excited and freaking out at the same time lol
AHHHHHHHH!!! (Screaming hurts my throat, omg)
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do you ever feel like you like someone a lot more than they like you and then start to feel like you’re just annoying them because while you always want to talk to them they probably don’t always want to talk to you and it stresses you out a lot and then you just start to feel really depressed about it
100% of the time with basically 100% of people
My mind is racing… it mostly good thoughts. I am really happy in my life right now. Everything is going great. Its just… changing A LOT. Holy fuck. I wish things would just slow down! And yet, I am the one pushing things to speed up half the time. Fail on my part. Anyway, its all catching up to me. It’s moving way too fast. I should start blogging more so I have a place to release all this. But that involves having time. Haha. Omg, somebody stop my rambling. I hope my mind calms the fuck down soon so I can get to sleep. Too much going on!
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